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Grounding Exercise, 2023
performed at auftakt festival, 2023, Cologne DE
read at Feminist Frequencies, Radio Echo x Radio Worm, 2024, Rotterdam NL 


2 modes
build 
fail





In geology, petrification 
is the process 
by which organic material 
becomes a fossil 
through the replacement 
of the original material 
and the filling 
of the original pore spaces 
with minerals
petrified wood typifies this process
but all organisms
from bacteria to vertebrates
can become petrified




For if your eyes 
are petrified in amazement
she will turn you to stone



layer

upon layer 

upon layer 

upon layer



Instruction:  
Take a stone in one hand and some sand in your other hand
Imagine how the stone in your hand turns into sand
Imagine how the sand in your hand 
turns into stone
What are you turning into?



We are walking down the streets
they are so familiar
I’ve seen them countless times
I see statues on facades and 
young beheaded women on fire escapes 
every window of every shop 
looks like a gallery
i look and look



blue sky is creeping 
through the buildings 
the yellow streetlights against the blue 
make me happy and anxious 



we are crossing sides 
i make fun of you walking faster 
on this side of the Atlantic 
you turn back with a grumpy smile
we arrive at the bakery 
named after a Sicilian volcano 






A crack in a stone

A crack in a bone

A crack in a stone

A crack in a bone

A crack in a stone

A crack in a bone

A crack in a stone

A crack in my bone





At the gym
I am working to turn myself into stone 
performing a scripted choreography 


position, lift
position, lift
pause 
repeat: position, lift
position, lift
pause 
repeat: position, lift
position, lift


I learn that 
muscles will only grow 
if they are first 
broken down

to sculpt a body
to break down 
entire areas of muscles 
to work these areas 
to failure 

controlled gestures 
same weights

same reps
same sets



destroy 
demolish 
collapse
crumble 
rebuild 








I WATCH CLOUDS PASS BY
HEAR STONES CRACK




It took me a while 
to find them 
but then I did
We had been walking 
for a long time 
until we finally 
reached the forest



The deeper
we got into the forest 
the darker 
and darker it became



The spaces between 
the trees grew larger
Green turned into gray


The ground covered with petrified
melted rock
no animals nowhere
We walked silently 
through this fossil of a forest
past crystalline stone formations 
and calcified foliage


As the sun transforms 
from a streak of light on the horizon 
into a sphere
we gather 
to summon our powers
We move inside 
a rock formation
Slowly we all kneel down
As my knees hit the floor
I feel a light sting on the kneecaps 
and move slightly 
to be more comfortable
We spread our arms wide 
in front of us
the fingers close together 



There is no talking between us
but we are connected 
by a faint humming 
passing from one member of the group to the next
The wind whirls up dust
the sky changes colors
The sun suddenly seems very close
Our humming intensifies
The ground cracks
Shifts
I can hear the song of ringing rocks traveling through the air 
Every sound becomes a voice



After a while
small spots of burning ash 
start to appear 
on the tips 
of the standing rocks
The glow spreads
traveling down the stones


Smoke rises
the glow leaves pulsating traces 
on the stones
forming a tight net of heat
dissolving all the rocks
Melting down the entire landscape constructions and concepts
Past
Present
Future
After the meltdown









I look at pictures of petrified forests online
I screenshot them 
and save them in a folder called “FUTURE”





I keep thinking about a short story 
I read a while ago
about a person consumed by grief slowly transforming into stone
her body crystallizes
toughens 



I look at an influencer wearing a shirt 
that says the keys 
to physical and spiritual health 
with pictures of healing stones 
set up in a grid




We sit down for lunch, there is 
some anxiety about being perceived 
by others who are also sitting down 
drinking their filter coffees and having their pastries[a][b]
We tell the dog to lie down 
and tell him he is a good boy



The waiter comes and brings us water 
and advises my friend to order that dish 
instead of the other
they’ll get more for their money



She comes back and brings us 
our orders and says 
its so funny my friend has a dog
that looks exactly like this dog 
and the dog is called 
Medusa 
and it’s strange 
cause I study greek mythology 
and know that 
Medusa 
is a woman actually 
and how weird 
to call a dog who is a boy 
Medusa



We laugh
and tell her it's actually our dog 
and medusa is also the word for jellyfish




jellywish





Let flowering weeds grow up 
in the whole in your side




fitness journey 
running journey 
sculpting journey
tracking milestones



Turn me to stone

Turn me to stone

Turn me to stone




early vases and stone-cravings 
depict 
Medusa 
as having been born 
a Gorgon 
but that slowly changes

according to Ovid 
Medusa 
was once 
a beautiful young maiden
with amazing hair
the only mortal of three sisters known 
as the Gorgons
her beauty catches the eye 
of the sea god Poseidon
who rapes her in the sacred temple 
of Athena
furious at the desecration of her temple
Athena curses 
Medusa 

turns her into a monster 
turns her beautiful hair 
into venomous snakes
turns her eyes into weapons
from now on 
whoever looks upon her face will 

turn to stone

Turn me to stone

Turn me to stone 

Turn me to stone 

Fill me up with your minerals 


You tell me 
you talked to 
this guy at a party in L.A. who 
has a classic poodle 
with a vibration collar 
and how it did wonders for his dog 
who was also reactive


I wonder 
if it actually did wonders for the dog
sounds like it mostly 
made life easier for the guy 
and I wonder 
if our lives with others 
are supposed to be easy 
and also 
how much we can sculpt 
the animals surrounding us


She asks me 
what are my plans for the night 
I tell her 
I have to get my dog from my friend 
and i ask her if she has a pet
she tells me she had a bird
a real bird
he died last year from a heart attack 
a door slammed shut loudly 
and he got scared and fell on the floor 
and was pretend dead 
completely frozen 
and that’s how he died 
because he wasn’t breathing enough


She says I have beautiful hair 
and recommends a hair mask 
(additional €5)
I say no
She recommends a conditioner (additional €3)
I say no
She recommends getting highlights 
to hide the white streaks
I say no
she says that's a first

She cuts the tips of my hair
so it falls in soft layers again
the ends fall to the ground like feathers


I remember 
mom refers to hair as feathers 
in her mothers tongue

The overall chemical composition 
of hair is 
45 % carbon
28 % oxygen
15 % nitrogen
7 % hydrogen
5 % sulfur
no minerals 
although eating minerals helps 
with hair growth


she tells me I should come back in eight weeks 
to cut the ends


The platform I booked 
the appointment through keeps 
sending me reminders 
to rate my experience 


three stars, it was ok


she calls me on the phone to ask me 
what she could do better 
she refuses to get three stars
she wants five


*****


LOOK AT THE MEDUSA 
SHE’S BEAUTIFUL 
AND SHE’S LAUGHING



i am thinking about 
last night's dinner 
with your high school friends 
how they each have 
a clear path carved out 
how they set one foot 
after the other 


your friend tells us 
about her wedding at the zoo 
how it can’t rain 
because then they’d have to do 
the ceremony with the rhinoceros 
and that’s going to be a bit smelly 
she shows us her dress 
gorgeous leaves 
draped around her beautiful body 

i ask if the leaves will be glued onto her 
no she says it’s invisible mesh 

our 2 hour slot at the restaurant is up so 
we take our fortune cookies mine says 
the fortune you seek can’t be found in this cookie 

we are walking to Annie’s Crisis Bar 
people are singing loudly around a piano 
i feel i want to belong to them 
your friends are talking about 
living in capitalism instead of under 





A crack in a stone

A crack in my bone





How did you sleep
Like a rock
10/10


Started at the gym yesterday
what did you do 
full body tested all the things there 
yay exciting 
yaaa so nice 
have always had so much social anxiety there 
before 
so was never possible to be present 
ugh yes
gym anxiety
hot face emoji




I WATCH CLOUDS PASS BY
HEAR STONES CRACK





A crack in a stone

A crack in my bone


i tell you how i feel i am 
lacking this clear vision of a path 

how i am wondering 
if there will even be a world in 30 years
how i don’t know 
how to carve a path for my life 

how the air seems to turn to stone 



kiss the stones

crushed little stars





keep turning

compost memories



creatives are the new athletes lol


After we send various 
ssense links to each other with 
workout outfits 
I see you on tinder 
and immediately swipe left


My friend says how rude 
you should always 
swipe your friends right 
so next time I see your picture 
I swipe the other way and we match 


At school 
we run into each other by the elevators and smile awkwardly
your friend is standing next to you 
and I feel 
like it's high school all over again



You come over 
and you text me you are wearing 
rain pants and I am not to laugh about it
You take them off in the elevator
I cook and we listen to music
You feel so shy 
and you make me feel shy 
and it's impossible to touch each other


The dog sitter texts: is it ok if we take his harness off while we are at home?

your italian friend says she was dripping 
and fell to the ground
and we talk about the humiliation 
of falling in public space


drop by drop 
by drop by drop
by drop


Mom sends pictures of the garden 
she tells me the bumblebees 
are making a comeback 
there is actually nothing to worry about 



instruction: 
place your body close to the ground 
be still and hold your breath 
endure the forces of erosion 
do not react to changes in 
weather
atmosphere 
season
be moved don’t move 




A crack in a stone

A crack in my bone



i sit in the sun next to you 
we are eating rainbow cookies 
and you hold my hand 
i think how i love how your hand 
feels in mine


people are passing by 
looking precious and sculpted 


we enter a bookstore 
i open a book on a random page 
it says 

this shore

of stones

remains 

it feels like a warning 





every stone is simultaneously 
intact and broken
a singular stone as well as a mountain
an entire planet



Can you answer me


no



Can you answer me


no



Can you answer me


no





I am learning 

to run quickly

with lightness and grace

and without falling


i can’t fall apart 
because i’ve never fallen together


no feelings, just vibes